taking the challenge...

we decided to take the challenge this year...beginning tomorrow...one blog a day through the entire month of october...why...it is down syndrome awareness month...so be ready to hear a lot more from me...at least through the month of october...

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that feeling...

you know that feeling you get? the one that sweeps you off your feet...that causes those butterflies to flutter their wings a little and to fill you up with satisfaction...the overwhelming feeling that you are totally and completely fulfilled...and it makes you want more...it makes you strive for better...it's addicting that feeling. when you hear that perfect song, that soundtrack to your day, and it puts that extra pep back into your step and you can't help but dance just a bit...when you find your new favorite restaurant and of course they play live music...when you feel the sunshine grace your skin...when you see a child smile...when the leafs begin to change...when your morning starts off with laughter...when you feel the tiniest of hands tickle your face...the feel of grass under a picnic blanket or sand under your feet, the way you feel in the arms of that special someone...you know that feeling...when you drink in all that life has to offer...it's a good one.

team camajama....

buddy walk 2010

we loved it! a special thanks to all of our donors and friends and family!!!

writing....

yesterday i wrote a rambling post that detailed my woes as of late...and midway through i lost track and decided that my woes weren't that bad...and today i deleted it from my drafts...oh how i love writing...it makes me realize how stupid i can sound when i read it out loud.

not enough words...

the end.

homeward bound...

the flu has past through our entire household over the last 2 weeks...from dad to baby and finally to mom...and although i can't say it has been the best time that i have ever had...it hasn't been the worst thing to have an excuse to snuggle in bed with baby all day...to cover him in kisses while watching movies in an oversized comforter...to leave pretty much every chore thinkable undone...to have lunch brought in by dad...to see camden in an oh so big sleeper because mom hasn't done the laundry in a week, his little hands trying to play peekaboo through fabric that loosely hangs three or so inches over his fingertips....the sweet raspy babbles of a sick little one who still manages to find smiles throughout his day. life is good...even when it's a little tainted.

shout it from the rooftop....

it is funny, down syndrome...i never thought much about it before camden...i knew that this world existed...i had encounters here and there...but i was never a part of it...and that was my fault...and i wish now that i had always been a part of it...i missed out on so much before camden...i watch those people now who choose to be a part of it...who want to be a part of it on their own...and it amazes me...they have found this amazing journey...they didn't stumble onto it...they weren't thrown into it...and yet they can see the blessings of it...and i envy them, because they saw it for what it was, even when they didn't need to.

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the overwhelming love that surrounds this life that i hold now is indescribable at times...and maybe every first time mother feels something of this love...every mother in general...at least i hope that they do...camden has changed me...in unmeasurable ways...and sometimes i want to jump up and scream at the top of my lungs about how amazing this journey can be...

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i often think about this journey and its similarities to red mango pomegranate frozen yogurt (replace with whatever you like if you aren't also overwhelmed with the pink goodness this food presents, i could also use cake batter ice cream from cold stone)...when i had my first taste i needed more...i wanted more...not only did i want more but i wanted everyone around me to encounter this flavor...i brought friends and co-workers and my husband and i loved it and wanted them to love it too...when you find something in this life that is so good it makes your heart swell you can't help but want to share it...at least that is how i am...i want to fly to the farthest outreaches of life and bring them frozen yogurt...i would then die happy...this is how i feel about down syndrome...there is something so overwhelmingly delicious about the simplicity and perfection in this new life that we have...i want everyone to experience this flavor...i want everyone to feel the overwhelming happiness that it brings to those who encounter it...and it breaks my heart when i see people overlooking the goodness in life...the wholesome flavor that it can be...camden has added so much flavor to my life that i have to shout it from the rooftop...life can be so good.

a utah man...

you know it...game 1... whoot whoot!

note for game two..mommy can not yell...good or bad....screaming baby will occur...