Wednesday, May 5, 2010

tears...

the morning we were told about cam i cried....i tried not to, i tried to choke back the tears...and i did alright until the pediatrician got to health concerns...which we were not quite expecting...but then again, we didn't quite know what to expect....and i couldn't fight back that throbbing feeling at the back of my throat any longer...i lost it... i wanted to stop, i could tell the pediatrician was feeling that awkward bit of uncomfortable...i wanted to laugh and smile and embrace that sweet little body they had taken into the nursery the night before...but i lost it to the aching... and i am glad i did...because billy climbed into that hospital bed with me and he held me and we cried together...and i knew right then and there that there was no one else i could have made it through this with...so we cried...and we gathered our strength to announce our little boy to the world....every single bit of him...and we grew together...and i am thankful for our time in that hospital bed...because we wouldn't have made it to where we are now without it...and as we get ready to take a beautiful baby boy to another cardiologist appointment i think back on that morning and i know we can get through it...good or bad....we can do it together.

15 comments:

  1. and now you are making me cry... You can get through it together. What an amazing family you have. Husband and son. :)

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  2. Thanks for sharing that...you brought back my own moment with my husband...but ours was on our love seat in our living room. How lucky we are to share this journey with someone to hold through all of the good and bad moments...

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  3. Thanks for sharing that. Very well said...

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  4. That was beautiful. I remember Brad doing the same thing with me after finding out about Russell, that first night was the hardest and he was there everytime I started to fall apart.
    Camden is the cutest little guy and is blessed with parents who have a strong love for one another. I hope everything goes well at his appointment today.

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  5. You are an amazing family! What a lucky little boy Camden is to have such wonderful, strong parents. I hope that the appointment goes well today. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

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  6. I love this post. You guys are amazing and our thoughts and prayers are with you guys.

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  7. Isn't it amazing what we can get through! Loved your story. Truly amazing! Best wishes tomorrow...

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  8. Tonya, Thank you so much for letting us have a glimpse into your life. You write such beautiful words that touch me evertime I visit your blog. Good luck with the appointment.

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  9. You guys are so great! We love yoU!

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  10. This reminded me of so much. Let us know how Cam's appointment went, hoping for the best!

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  11. i love this post. it is amazing how news like this really does strengthen a marriage. we are going to boston this weekend for heart surgery for Addson, so i know how you feel with all of these appointments. i hope that your appointment goes well! your baby boy really is so beautiful.

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  12. So sweet Ton. You and BB are amazing.

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  13. Grandma Laura/MomMay 6, 2010 at 1:48 PM

    All that I can say is, "Well done Billy, well done!" Thanks for caring for my little girl and loving her so deeply. Stay strong "together", that's the most important thing. We all love you guys very much and are constantly in our prayers.

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  14. Your family is so sweet. Thank you so much for sharing. It was such a personal experience. You are so sweet. We are so happy things are going so well and little Cam is doing GREAT!

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