Friday, September 3, 2010

shout it from the rooftop....

it is funny, down syndrome...i never thought much about it before camden...i knew that this world existed...i had encounters here and there...but i was never a part of it...and that was my fault...and i wish now that i had always been a part of it...i missed out on so much before camden...i watch those people now who choose to be a part of it...who want to be a part of it on their own...and it amazes me...they have found this amazing journey...they didn't stumble onto it...they weren't thrown into it...and yet they can see the blessings of it...and i envy them, because they saw it for what it was, even when they didn't need to.
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the overwhelming love that surrounds this life that i hold now is indescribable at times...and maybe every first time mother feels something of this love...every mother in general...at least i hope that they do...camden has changed me...in unmeasurable ways...and sometimes i want to jump up and scream at the top of my lungs about how amazing this journey can be...
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i often think about this journey and its similarities to red mango pomegranate frozen yogurt (replace with whatever you like if you aren't also overwhelmed with the pink goodness this food presents, i could also use cake batter ice cream from cold stone)...when i had my first taste i needed more...i wanted more...not only did i want more but i wanted everyone around me to encounter this flavor...i brought friends and co-workers and my husband and i loved it and wanted them to love it too...when you find something in this life that is so good it makes your heart swell you can't help but want to share it...at least that is how i am...i want to fly to the farthest outreaches of life and bring them frozen yogurt...i would then die happy...this is how i feel about down syndrome...there is something so overwhelmingly delicious about the simplicity and perfection in this new life that we have...i want everyone to experience this flavor...i want everyone to feel the overwhelming happiness that it brings to those who encounter it...and it breaks my heart when i see people overlooking the goodness in life...the wholesome flavor that it can be...camden has added so much flavor to my life that i have to shout it from the rooftop...life can be so good.

7 comments:

  1. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this!!! I feel the same way...at first I wasn't sure I would ever feel this way, but boy do I ever. The joy that Sutter brings is amazing and overwhelming all at once! I love Landon just as much, but there is something special about Down syndrome and what it brings to us!

    I'm not sure where you get the red mango pomegranate frozen yogurt, but it sounds amazing!!!

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  2. I LOVE this Tonya! And I think you and little Camden have inspired MORE and MORE people to be involved and to learn more about Down Syndrome. I have a feeling (and have had it since Camden was born) that your little family will have NO IDEA on the impact you are/will make on people's lives!
    Please continue to keep sharing because you guys are amazing!!!

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  3. i love this post. i couldn't agree more. i know it sounds weird but sometimes i feel myself beaming with pride when i tell someone that i have a daughter who is blessed with down syndrome. they don't always get it...but i am so proud of her. everything about her- including the DS. this post is very well written and captures these concepts perfectly.

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  4. [tears] what a great post. I completely know how you feel...and isn't it amazing?

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  5. What a beautifully written post. I couldn't agree more. I secretly hope that close friends and family members will have a baby with Ds too, so they can be a part of this amazing world we are soooo blessed to be a part of! Its my Dreyers Slow Churned Mint Oreo Cookie Ice Cream! :)

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  6. Isn't that the truth! And so beautifully written too... and oh how I LOVE me some frozen yogurt! Life CAN be so good! I am so glad our boys came into our lives so that we could be friends!

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  7. Amazing Tonya Rae...my words fail me. You, my darling daughter, are an amazing mother. Trully Camden has blessed my life in so many ways. Thank you for blessing me with a grandson that is soooo amazing and truly fills my soul. I love you and I am so proud of you and your committment to DS and to educating so many people in such a beautiful way, including your mother.

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