stache bash...

prepare for picture overload...

decor:

birthday boy:

photo booth:  (didn't get everyone, but here is who we did get...)

 

 

 

 

and it wouldn't be a birthday without this guy...

 

 he is two!!!!!!!!

our little man turns two...

today we celebrate two years of having a tiny soul bless our home.  there are a lot of emotions wrapped up into today...and the wish that i could turn back time to the day this tiny little being came into the world.  if i knew what life would be like today...i wouldn't have cried those sad tears, i wouldn't have partaken in any amount of resentment, i wouldn't have mourned a child that never existed...i would have celebrated every ounce of the six pounds that i was so blessed with....because he is mine, and he was made for me in the most perfect of ways and i can't imagine life any different, or any more "normal" than it is today.  thank you camden for the light and love that you bring into our home and into our hearts every single day...for the world we never knew existed and the happiness that we have found there.  because i know now how little you need me and just how much that i need you.  today we celebrate you, camden, every ounce of you little man.  

on a side note...we are opening up our celebration to friends and family this saturday...if you are in town and would like to join in on the fun...let me know!

a birthday...

one year ago, i became a mother.

one year ago, i could hear nurses whisper...and an ob asked to speak to us in private...one year ago they said they saw those almond eyes...one year ago billy and i were too afraid of the what ifs so we didn't speak of them at all. one year ago our family welcomed their first perfect grandchild...and they had no idea about the concerns the doctor had brought up to billy and i. one year ago, camden's lips turned blue and whispers continued...and our new baby was wheeled in and out of the nursery with concern and hushed faces. one year ago i hoped the doctors were wrong. one year ago i had no idea how much my life would change. one year ago i didn't know camden.

those feelings are all still raw and fresh, but they are different somehow...they are new, they come with love and understanding and the knowledge that everything will be more than alright.

if i have learned anything over the last year, it is how to love...fully and without conditions, without limits and with appreciation. camden made me a mother for the first time and he has taught me more than i would have ever dreamed possible. as we celebrate today we celebrate camden. we celebrate love, we celebrate limitless possibilities. we celebrate a new way of life, a good way of life. we celebrate the little things, we celebrate our family and we celebrate life's surprises...because they mold you, they make you better, they bring more than your plans ever would have allowed.

thank you camden...for everything you are, and everything that you will grow up to be.

happy first birthday bud!

almost one...

tomorrow is the big day...we have already celebrated with our family and friends..and pics will show up soon...but tomorrow it is official...i will have a big one year old. i might cry a little, like i did while watching his face light up at the water show at disneyland, or when he was full of life trying to jump in and out of the waves at the beach today, or splashing himself in the pool and then giggling and doing it again...i know i'm ridiculous. i feel as though this milestone has come with all sorts of new tricks...like his continued attempts at crawling, his tries at pulling himself up, his insatiable need to be on the move, his new found love of anything with water, his signing dog, waving hello and bye, clapping and yelling yay, mimics of everything dad and i do...like clicking our tongues, clapping, signing, coughing, laughing and more....understanding in his eyes, his nigh nigh cries at bedtime, his ma ma when he needs me, his ada da's.... it's a whole new world out there from here on out...and each day brings something even more magical....so bring on tomorrow!

celebrating....

we are celebrating a little early this year...(he turns one officially on the 24th)...and i can't believe it's almost here. my little baby isn't a baby anymore and with his attempts at crawling getting more sophisticated each day i am going to have a little toddler on my hands soon.

really? in only two weeks...

update for you....i feel like the only thing i ever blog about anymore is my ever growing belly! haha...but that's ok because i have fun with it....so here you go....

19 weeks...........................................21 weeks

you might not see the difference...haha but i do...and it's hilarious to me how fast this little guy is growing! and a little scary being that i still have 18 weeks left to go!!!! ahhh!

on a side note....thanks to everyone who called and text and sent messages on my birthday! i am truly blessed by all of the people i have in my life! so thank you! my birthday was so fun and i was definitely spoiled!!!

Happy Birthday and Valentine's Day Babe!

Today is Billy's birthday, and I just wanted to let him know how much I love him!

I can't imagine where I would be right now without you babe, you are everything to me!

Happy Birthday to my Valentine!

Feel free to show Billy some love today! :)