Saturday, December 10, 2011

holding on a little bit tighter...

i watched a video on facebook today, and i broke down bawling on our way home from christmas shopping...it made me want to hold onto this little boy of mine a little bit tighter...it made me ever so thankful that we still get to see that tiny boy every day, and it made me thankful for the opportunity i have to be his momma...because every child is a blessing, and every life teaches a lesson...and often times the shortest of lives teach in the most profound of ways. everyday that i get to wake up to his smile i learn something new about myself, every story that touches our lives through camden helps me to understand our own a little bit better...and today i am ever so thankful that billy and i were somewhat oblivious to the dangers that camden faced in the first few days of his own life...because it is only now, that we are on the other side, that i look back and realize just how little i was in control, and just how easily things could have taken an entirely different direction...and i know now that if they had, or if they ever do, we will be alright, because i have faith in our eternal family and know that sometimes all you can do is take a step back and realize that someone knows you, loves you and has a plan for you.

and with that knowledge comes the peace of knowing that everything will always be alright, even if it isn't what we had planned out...that every single moment counts, big or small...and that embracing those moments are what makes life worthwhile...

so we are alright with the messes...
we are enjoying the hugs...and the giggles...
the ever blossoming toddler that we call ours...
even if he is one stubborn little boy sometimes...and doesn't like to do things on mommy's timetable...because it really doesn't matter, all that matters is that he is ours, forever and always.

2 comments:

  1. I feel the exact same way :)...And man does that boy ever look like his Daddy!! Too cute!

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  2. great post, and great outlook!

    Nikki
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